“In many countries Pride is a time when people of all sexualities and genders are celebrated…” but not in China! “In the past,” the narrator drones on, “Pride used to be stamped out in the West, and in some countries it still is.” Ominous music swells behind these words. The…

My mother keeps making anodyne comments about the societal pressures faced by women: “society puts so many unfair expectations on women to conform.” It is her defence mechanism to justify the toxic attitudes she has internalized about growing older. My mother is beautiful at 60, as beautiful as she ever…

Sitting near my (current) favourite tree, some kind of hardwood with flaking bark and tangled roots — currently blanketed in Swiss springtime flowers — I ruminate about my obsessions. I usually jump forward, into some apocalyptic version of the present. Or, most nights I return over and over to my…

I don’t care if it hurts I wanna have control I want a perfect body I want a perfect soul … So fuckin’ special I wish I was special (Radiohead) Sissy porn did make me trans (Andrea Long Chu) This is not what I planned to write about. I wanted…

Back in May, I had my first intentional orgasm with my neovagina. I wrote about it. The piece was positively pornographic in its prose account of what it felt like. I seem to have deleted it or misplaced it by accident. But perhaps this is best, as I have been…

No family is safe When I sashay -Perfume Genius I have been to Queer Pride in Seoul, Tokyo, London, Toronto, Vancouver, Montreal (maybe), Amsterdam, Utrecht, and probably a few other places. I have watched it become a global phenomenon; and save for Seoul, and the more grassroots one in smallish…

My trans story goes way back. I just turned 36, which makes me feel very old. Not in the sense that 36 is actually old (it is!!!), but in the way, that time appears more relative as you get older, and that relativity translates into it seemingly moving faster. I…

It’s been five months since I had the surgery. It went well. I recently read that between 80–90 percent of female-identified post-operative transsexuals can achieve orgasm. I wish I had read that before. They always make it seem like there is a high chance it won’t work. Even the recovery…